Memories ♥

Just now I'm feeling kinda bored and nostalgic, so I read back all my old blog post. Yes, from my 1st post till the newest one, which total in around 90++. All the memories...♥

I just realized, I've been though so much, changed so much, experienced so much.
And now I feel...Lucky to have those memories that made me who I am today.


There are up and downs that I've forgotten. 


It feels so great to remember again. ♥

Guys, THANK YOU ALL!!

And I ♥ my blog.


I promise I'll update as soon as I found my pendrive which has suddenly dissapear -.-




p.s: My facebook wall is filled with links XD





~Joee~

Yeah...

Hey guys...Been some time since I post..Well, a lot happened since then~ My cosplay thing arrive, and I had a blast playing with them and taking photos~

 How I put my wig xD

Luka, Lenalee, and Simca clothes :D

 Lenalee :D

Luka, Miku, and Rin =3= Of course, I'm Luka.

And yeah, I also went to the event, c2age at Tropicana City Mall. Had fun.



Meh there's a lot more photos...Lazy upload..If you want to see, go to my facebook profile.

http://www.facebook.com/imjoeejoe

And oh yeah, I went to Pulau Sibu er....A very long time ago.

Guess I could say the stay there is so so...Not nice and not bad~ What I love about going there is getting to take loads of photos (which I haven't upload yet ._. ) and getting to have share a room with just me, my sis, and my bro~~

Well...Gotto go...Maybe I'll upload more pictures later~ Bye~

~Joee~

Mid term Exam!!! _|_

Sigh...Today at school damn my feeling is damn down..><" But after recess, I'm better~ Can't be down for long  with such crazy friends and classmates~

I'm really stressed out yesterday night, till I cried. ._.

It's not only because of exam, it's everything mixed up together.

My piano, I've got stacks of pass year papers to do, and I don't like music theory. I'm very slow at it sigh...
Then, I still haven't practice the piece my teacher ask me to play, and also my exam pieces sigh....

Then Japanese class...I've missed 2 class now, FML.
So many homework need to do, and so many things to revise too..
Exam N3 at July, and I don't want to fail...But looking at my books, what with all the kanji and grammar to remember, I wonder if I can pass..So damn many things to study, sigh......

And STUPID SCHOOL EXAM.
I din't go for tuition, and the teachers at school sucks, so I din't pay much attention. Doesn't matter anyway, because I won't understand even if I pay attention. Those teachers don't know how to teach, they're always off topic. Fuck.

And the day after tomorrow is exam. Damn, I don't even know which chapter I need to read nor the format of the exam. Right now, I'm not so worried as yesterday, because I found out the time for additional maths, physics, biology, and chemist will next week. Thank goodness. I will still have some time.

Sigh, right now I'm studying Bahasa Melayu, komsas. And damn, I haven't even start on history yet. Stupid history, I HATE YOU!! And the stuopid history teacher to =_=!
She doesn't even know what she's teaching! And she din't even teach, lazy idiot ==!
Always ask the students to do presentation while you sit behind and act pro. Fuck.

Sigh, I'm getting really mad now. How do the government and school expect the student to get good results if the teacher is bullshit?! How the hell did those so called 'teachers' qualify to teach? DAMN.

Sigh. Sometimes I just wish I could go awat from Malaysia. Damn.


~Joee~

FML

Geez. Nowdays I'm so useless. Everything I do FAIL. FAIL. FAIL!!! FML.

Why the hell I can't seem to memorize my piano songs?? Why can't I sing like I wanted to? Why can't I have the willpower to keep up my diet and exercise?! FUCK.

And why the hell I can't find enough willpower to study?!!!
My school studies SUCK, my japanese SUCK, my music theory SUCK.
FML.


T^T



I tried, tried, tried...But everything just SUCK.
Maybe I din't try hard enough?




Sigh.




I'm so down nowdays =_= No confidence.
Geez. And I know I seem okay, but I'm not.
Because I'm faker.
I hate faker.
And I hate myself.




~Joee~

Wiggie + Cosplay!!

=3= I received my Sen and Chihiro costume last Saturday!! xD

Read more about it here. Find the post yourself xD That's a blog I made to keep track of my cosplay =w=


I had so much fun messing around with the wig xD
At first it was like this:

To this:

xD I wash it, use loads of conditioner, then trim it, then iron it with my hair straightener =3= xD

Messing around xD What do you think I look like with long hair? XDD
And here's my Sen (from Spirited Away) cospay:

TeeHee. Gotto go, dinner time~ Bye!


~Joee~

Inspiration.

Since last year, my inspiration for the piano is gone.
I tortured myself to keep on learning, eventhough I almost give up last year.
Now that I'm in a higher grade, everything just changes.
Whenever I want to learn new songs, I will learn till halfway and stop.
I can't seem to learn it properly. I can't play without looking at the sheet music, and I can't remember it at all.
I'm very depressed about it then, but I ignore it, thinking that it'll blow over..

Yeah, until now, I haven't learn a piece properly. It's already been a year.
What the heck am I doing all those time, I don't know.
I guess I'm just practicing pieces my teacher gave me, without emotions.
My teacher said that too..."Learn to play more detailed, play with more feelings!"

Sigh...I wonder what happened to me. I used to love playing piano so much, I could sit in front of it all day...And nowdays I would sit in front of it for 30 minutes, and then I'll get bored...
To me, piano is nothing but something that makes a sound.
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And then everything changed.



After watching this video, I remembered how beautiful can a piano sound.
It's like something just snaps inside me, somehow this seems so damn nostalgic...
Then I went to my piano, and randomly select a slow song to play...I played Yuki Kajiura's 'At Dawn', and I hear something I haven't heard in 1 year time. Seriously, I almost cried...I've forgotten how beautiful my piano can sound like..And most important, I've forgotten how great is the feeling to play a piece. nicely..
Sigh..The feeling is just..Unexplainable.
All I know is, it's very nostalgic and I just hope, just hope that this feeling won't run away from me again.




p.s: Wow. I just checked, and the last time I recorded a song and put it in YouTube is 11 months ago...It's been that long huh..I'll try my best to record a new song and put it on YouTube :)

http://www.youtube.com/user/Musicinmoonlight#p/u

Lol. My old YouTube account XD


~Joee~
あの感じ、本当に懐かしいと悲しいとうれしいの感じだった。。

Mess.

Meh. Everything's a mess right now. School,my room, time management.....

At school, I'm left behind on all the homeworks since last month..I don't understand what the heck is teacher talking about and I've certainly have no mood to pay even more attention...Those teacher sucks at teaching and their behavior is completely unacceptable! -.-

Home. My room's a total mess...For example...

Mess mess mess..

Books, files, unmade bed...

Table with almost everything you can think of...

Cardboard boxes ont the floor...

My wardrobe stuffed with all types of garments....

And yeah, more here.

Haha. I wonder who will be the poor victim that will share a room with me when I'm at college..lol.
My mum just gave me a bunch of tanktops she found in her wadrobe...I've no idea where to put it..And when my cosplay stuff, I've got a feeling that my room will be the worse..:x

I think I'll clean out my room on Thursday..Problem is, with my damn lazy character and my sinuses problem, I doubt it'll get it done in a day...Sigh...T^T

My time management...broke down.

I have really weak willpower...T^T
I can't seem to find time for my studies, japanese studies, piano practice, exercise, and looking after my dogs...Everyday after school, I sleep...I'm tired :( While I sleep, those time that were supposed to be used for my studies and bla bla bla is gone.

See what I mean when I have weak willpower? I just ignore the important things...Damn it. And I've gained weight again, just when I managed to lose some I gained it back, FML.

'AHHHHH JOEE STOP SLEEPING EVERY AFTERNOON AND GET YOURSELF INTO THE SWIMMING POOL!!! FUCK.'

That's what my mind would yell everyday, and I'll reply, "But the swimming pool's cold..I'm tired..Tomorrow.'

Tomorrow.

I hate that word. Sometimes I wish that 'tomorrow' will never come.

Sigh...I'm stressing out !@#$%^&

I'm gonna take Japanese N3 exam this July, and I HAVE TO PASS.
And I've got piano grade 5 theory and practical...Damn.
And after seeing my suckish March test result, I realized I really MUST study...

Without realizing it's now 12.11AM. And I've got school tomorrow. See? I just hate the word tomorrow.

Wearing a hoodie while blogging lol. It's cold @_@

Sigh. I don't even know how to get started on things that I need to do. All I can say is, I can and I will somehow manage to get it done.

~Joee~