Monday, November 23, 2015

Dương Đông Town

Hello! On 4th November I met this girl called Ju (Which I think she just made up on the spot so I could easily remember her name hahahaa. Her real name is Hương, which is promounced as..I can't type it lol. )

Anyway, she's the waitress at the bar in the lobby where I play. She talked to me first, since well she said I look so sad and lonely all alone hahaha. She's really nice though, been taking care of me till now :3 (Typing this on 23rd November) 

And her birthday is only a day before mine!! Scorpio's ftw haha. She's 2 years older than me though.

So back to the original purpose of this post lol, Dương Đông Town. 

Coincidentally for my first off day, it's the same day as Ju! Yay so she kindly brought me to town :D
So glad she's willing to bring me out. But I think it's probably because she knows how lonely feels like. I can sense some emotions in her that is similar to me lol. In a way I guess we're similar?

Lol off topic again. Should just change the title to Dương Đông Town and Ju. Hahhaa. 

So...I've known her for 2 days and she is kind enough to bring me to town yay!
We had lunch together in the staff canteen before we went, and we start to talk more.

Lunch!

Lol she was worried I would dislike the food. It's fine, it reminded me of Malaysian chinese home cooked food.

After lunch, we took the company's bus and went :)

I can see that Ju is probably the type of person that cares about people around her more than herself. 
She keep on reminding my if I have my staff ID card, stopping me from killing myself (I almost walked onto the road without seeing an approaching motorbike lol. She stopped me in time).

Also helped me pay for stuff first since I don't have small change and she brought me to the bank to get my money changed. Acted just like my elder brother xD (Not that my real brother is ever that nice and kind hahahahaha)

Which made me feel weird cause....Her physical size is smaller than me. In fact, I noticed that most Vietnamese girls are shorter than me :'D

Below is a picture of the market place in town. We went there first to get some stuff.





It was so NOISY. Honks everywhere! Motorbikes were zooming around in all directions, and one almost ran over my foot. -_-

It was a whole new overwhelming experience for me lol. If I'm alone I probably would not survive lel.

After shopping, we took a taxi to a cafe.
It's an ice-cream cafe!!! I was like AWW YASSSSS. That was when Ju learnt I LOVE ICE-CREAM. lol

Her coffee and my ice-cream

Lol she told me coffee is her life.

Hi! haha


After this we walked to the seaside which is really near. Also there's a temple built on the cliff, we visited but I didn't take any picture.



The view from the temple. It was beautifulll

Selfie! Lol excuse my eye bags. I was TIRED from everything that time..


Hung around a while, then we walked down the jetty till the end, sat down and watched the sun set.
So nice :3





Lol picture taken before we got to the end. But yeah, see that tower at the back? That's where we went and just sit, enjoying the sea breeze and chatting.

After the sun has gone, we walked back, and she told me to try the Vietnamese "rice paper pancakes" lol. It was nice!!!



Sorry I can't remember what it's called in Vietnamese lel.
But it cost only 10000Dong. Cheap and nice!

Also told her to take this emo picture of me haha.

Next, dinner time! SEAFOOD!!
Not that I'm a huge fan, but her I'm by the sea after all.




So many choice. Each dish is priced at 50000 Dong.
We picked 4 lmao. Greedy and glutton much, we ended up not being able to finish everything.




Everything above was 130000 Dong. About RM25/person. 

It's enough for 3 person! So yeah, cheap :D


Everything was good except sea urchin. Ugghhh never again will I order.

After dinner, we went to the night market. Lol it was targeted for foreigners, so the stuff they sell there are very er...touristy and pricey. 

But we saw some interesting seafood stalls!


Dun dun dun

There were snakes!!! Must try one day. 

All we bought from the night market were ice-cream, cause I want it hahaha.

After that we walked back to the bus station only to find out that it's delayed and hour, so we went for some bubble milk tea.


And..that's it, my first visit to town lol. 

And first food poisoning I got here. Hahahahhaha. 
Probably from all the mixture of food I eat, I should have seen it coming.

Thank god the pain was bearable la, and I had medicine.

So yeah....Only writing this post on 23rd LOL
More than 2 weeks overdue.


Okay that's it time to sleep!
Sometime in the future I'll update about a beach visit!

Goodnight.







Monday, November 16, 2015

Thoughts.

In another hour it'll be 17th November.
My birthday.

I'll turn 20 soon.

As I look at reflection, my past, and my present, I wondered....

Am I happy? What am I feeling about what I have achieved so far?

I am abroad alone, by the sea which I love so much, in a foreign country with a job that most will consider great. But somehow, there is something about this that bugs me. Yes true, I know I am blessed to have my current job.
But it's not enough to keep me happy. I am restless. I want to do more, to learn more.

This does not feel like a career to me, this feels like a vacation. I guess nothing much wrong with that as I'll only stay for 6 months. But I certainly did not expect myself to feel this way before I came. I thought I would be crazy happy everyday playing the piano, and being by the sea.

I found out the sea is not enough to keep me happy, and being so free right here, it's making me feel so restless.

Now don't get me wrong, of course I am not unhappy. I just know that such a relaxed life is not for me now..I need to do more things. But then who knows, maybe that is only what I feel currently.

All in all I guess I am happy. I am blessed. I have a job which I never thought would come true before, I am eating nice food everyday, and I have great views. I am travelling and seeing a part of the world I've never seen before, and I am earning well.

What more could I ask for right?


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But also at this moment, I wish, and I keep on wishing, that a certain someone would talk to me.

Yes I was the one that tell you to leave me alone, and maybe it has really helped me in a sense. But oh god, barely a week, and I miss you. Sigh. Why am I feeling this way.

And I keep on wondering, will you wish me a happy birthday?
Although I know that birthdays mean nothing to you. And to be honest, it doesn't mean much to be either, but yet I still hope that I will be remembered.

Sigh much pathetic I am.


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Okay Joee, stop moping around.

In maybe 30 minutes, I'll be going out with friends :)
Waiting for them to finish their work.

Guess this post ends here then.

Bye.

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Edit on 23rd November

Lol much pathetic I was. He did message me to wish me, but at the same time the whole conversation just turn into something that made me upset and angry..In the end it's always the same. I'm just an idiot, and he's an idiot as well. 

All back to square one. And thank you for sort of making me feel shitty on my birthday. So much for thinking you would care. So, you could whine but I couldn't? You just have to tell me to shut the fuck up straightaway? Asshole.

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Also, didn't had the chance to go out at night since it was raining. Much sad.
Wasn't a memorable birthday, but oh well it's always been this way, as long as I can remember.

There were only 2 special birthday that I remember, Chi surprising me with a cake on my 16th, and college friends surprising me with a cake too on my 18th. 

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Vietnam

Hello bloggie, I've been in Vietnam for one week now. It's been an overwhelming experience so far.

So...Let me start from the very beginning, back to when it all begins.

It started on 6th September. I saw a post in a Facebook group, looking for solo pianist for a resort in Vietnam, and I'm like "well I have nothing to lose, let's give it a shot."
Fast forward a few days later, I got a reply telling me I've been chosen. I couldn't believe it to be honest, because I don't think highly of my own skills, and obviously my experience is not that much yet. But wow, I got it.

From there, began almost 2 months of email exchanges, contract signing, passport renewing etc etc.
The whole time I was so skeptical, I was afraid it wouldn't work out. I didn't tell anybody except my family and 2-3 close friends. I actually didn't let myself fully believe that I would be going, until I got the Visa letter sent to me and my airplane tickets, which is like less than a week before I fly lol.

So yeah, In that last week before I fly, I rusheddddd to finish my assignments, and I'm proud to say I managed to cross about 5 off my list. :) Also did some last minute shopping. 

The day before I fly I spent my time in college submitting assignments and finishing some pitch with a lecturer. Regretted that I did not organize my time properly to be honest, I wish I spent that day chilling at home sigh. Oh well, too late now. Also, I did my packing at the last minute. Everything was sooooo hectic. But thankfully everything is settled by that day.

My flight was at 12.30pm, so yeah got up at around 8am, and went for lunch with mom and Pei Shan. Met Crystal for the last time before I will go back. Thanks for the hug, note, and bracelet bij! You have no idea how much I appreciate that.


The night before I leave. My heart broke T_T Poor darling Miko. She knew. Baby doesn't give as much shit lol.


Dun dun dun. Airport! Almost two months ago I was there, thinking to myself how sad it was to be at the airport but not flying.

To be honest there were 2 main reasons, but I don't think anyone figured that out.
My main reason was because, if you're at the airport and not flying, it's because you're sending someone away. (Or picking someone up, but that doesn't apply to this sadness lol).

The other reason was the more common one that people see. You're not flying anywhere. Not that it's necessary a bad thing, but to some it is.

Anyway the checking in was a freaking nightmare. I had with me a suitcase, my keyboard, a tote bad that weights almost 8kg, my laptop bad, and a sling bag.
I checked in the suitcase and keyboard, but even then it was a NIGHTMARE.

The freaking keyboard is bigger than me, and it weights around 30kg wtf. And I had to check in twice. Once in KLIA, and another time in Ho Chi Minh.

Anyway I took Vietnam Airlines.
Man, I forgot how much I hate the sensation of flying. Lol ironic huh, I love to fly and travel but I hate it as well.


Lunch. The chicken was really nice! Orange juice tasted like alcohol, it was bitter lol. Veges were okay, bun is no longer soft by the time I ate it, fruit salad was okay, and I had no room in tummy left for whatever that piece of kuih is. Then I had tea, which I couldn't identify what kind of tea is was, but it tasted really fragrant and nice.


Airplane selfie lol. I feel so weird to be travelling alone, and it feels so surreal and lonely to be honest. 

The first flight, I got quite a good seat. Window seat near the entrance at the front of the plane. Guy seated next to me didn't talk to me lol, but he is nice in passing me stuff from the air stewardess and he's quite smiley.

The second flight was okay, but not that okay lol. I was already tired and dizzy from the flying, and I rushedddd to transit in Ho Chi Minh. Imagine me pushing a trolley of that huge keyboard and suitcase from one terminal to the other lol. People just make way when they see me approaching hahaha.

When I got to the next terminal I think I was the last to check in. I got the last seat, right opposite the toilet -_- And no one is sitting beside me.

Anyway thank god it was a short flight. I was hating the feeling of flying uggh.

So, reached Phu Quoc Island, and the hotel staff picked me up.

Bye bye airport!

On the way to hotel

When I got to the resort, I was shown to my room, and then I had to go out to the hotel to meet my managers.

My room is in the staff house, and the hotel is a 10 minutes walk away.
I either commute by foot, or I could take the hotel tuk tuk. But I find it troublesome to call, so I usually just walk, and if luck will have it, a tuk tuk will pass by and I'll just hop on lol.

Anyway, back to the first day, I met the managers, said hello, and I was shown around the place.

Taken while being shown aroumd

The hotel was still being renovated actually, and they were rushing to finish before the grand opening two days later. After I was shown around, I walked back to my room with a girl called Minh Ngan, and I asked her if I could go to the beach, where can I eat, etc etc.

Found out that she wasn't sure if I could use it or not, and that the restaurant I'm allowed to eat it wasn't opened yet. I had to have my meals in the staff canteen.

I wasn't that happy about it to be honest, I was tired, alone, I wasn't given any briefing yet, I don't know what I could do, I don't know how things work etc..And I was left all alone to eat in a staff canteen where the food will be foreign to me, and be alone without knowing anyone, and everyone is chatting in a language I do not understand at all? I felt so lonely that time. 

I chose not to eat, and instead went back into my room to unpack my stuff. And I'm not proud to say this, but...I burst into tears lolol. I was so overwhelmed by this new sense of loneliness that I've never felt before, most of them couldn't speak English, and conversation was quite limited with those that can. And then I couldn't find the air-cond remote control in my room and I had no idea who to look for lololol. Thinking back, I can't believe I was upset about that.

I guess I just didn't know what I was supposed to do or how things work here. 
I just felt terrified being alone.

Anyway I got pissed at myself for feeling that way, so I told myself to suck it up lolol. Went down to a sundry shop I saw, and bought some light snacks. 

Went back up, finished unpacking, ate something, messaged family and friends and felt even worse cause I was telling them I'm okay when I don't feel so lol. But oh, then the house manager knocked on my door to check if I'm okay, and I immediately felt better.

While unpacking my keyboard, I was so afraid that it got damaged during the flight. 


But thank god it's fine. Haha that was how I wrap it up. 

I went to bed shortly after unpacking lol.

And oh, here is some pictures of my room.





Yeah quite messy. That was taken while I was still unpacking.
Room is quite like what I expect, with more utilities provided. I wasn't expecting a tv (although it's not working yet lol) nor a water dispenser.

Guess it's quite alright, considering it's that staff house.


Day 2

Boyyy did I woke up with terrible aches all over. The bed was HARD, and the travelling around before had my muscles all sore. 

I walked to the hotel for a meeting at 9am. I found out more on what I can/can't do, how things operate, etc. Then I was introduced to the members of the Food & Beverage Department, and somehow got stuck for a while listening to the manager giving speeches about the F&B Department.

Then he told me to give a speech lol, and I'm like..."Er...Hi, nice to meet all of you, and I hope I can work well with all of you, even though I just play the piano.."
The whole office burst into laughter hahahhaa. I'm sorry I didn't mean to make a joke that might offend the manager, but I just felt so awkward omg. I mean, what am I supposed to say? :x

I also found out that I was expected to play during the hotel opening, the next day. Apparently my contract dates start at 29th October instead of 2nd November. A miscommunication between agent and the company. -_- They didn't tell me, but oh well since it's going to end earlier it's about the same. I mean, I'm already there anyway, and I didn't have to play for the first two days haha.

So yeah anyway..After the meeting I was told to test the piano, which I gladly did lol. 

It's a Kawai, and oh boy did it sound so dark. It's similar to my piano at home to be honest, except that it sounds darker. It's totally not suitable for hotel at all lol. They're supposed to get a Yamaha, but apparently some miscommunication happened. 

Oh well. If I played the higher octaves it sounds balanced enough, and woah it sounds good with sad songs. The tune just rings out beautifully, as in painfully beautiful lol. 

After testing the piano, I went back to the dorm, and I'm free for the day. I braved myself, and went to the dorm for lunch.

I took my food, and chose a seat opposite this girl that was eating alone. 
She smiled at me, and chatter to me in Vietnamese while I just stared helplessly lol. And she can't understand English at all. We then just smile sheepishly at each other and ate the meal in silence.

Wasn't that bad though, although I took some er, pickled beef I think which I find it hard to accept. I just stuff it down with lots of water and rice. The girl finished her meal before me, and while she left she grabbed a handful of fruits and gave it to me :'D

Among it were rambutans, and these;

The vietnamese call it "mini apple" but it taste like a type of pear to me lol. Didn't really like it.

So nice and sweet of her! Felt so thankful, as that simple gesture took away some of my homesickness lol. Then right at that time the HR manager saw me, and sat opposite me to have his meal. Phew someone to talk to! Although conversation was quite limited lol. But still, I'm glad that he's doing his best to make me feel comfortable, and he keep on asking me question, even though he was struggling slightly with the language.

It's not only him, it's most of the people here as well :D
They all tried to make me feel welcomed, and tried to keep a conversation going :)
I suck at keeping a conversation with people I don't know lol. I'll just get tongue tied.

So after that meal, I went back into the room and I think I slept. Can't remember much wth. I forgot what I did after lol. I think I went to the hotel to look for the General Manager.

Oh yeah, I did. On the walk to the hotel a guy riding an electric bicycle pass by me, and asked me something in Vietnamese. When he found out that I couldn't understand he just gestured for me to hop on when I said hotel. Yay free ride! The sun was scorching hot that time.

I didn't end up seeing the General Manager though. He was too busy. I hung around a bit, and went to the beach for a short while.





Then I went back to my room. Had dinner in the staff canteen, and I was all alone this time. Felt lonely again, and yeah got emotional again lol. 

Went back to my room and slept.


Day 3

The day to start playing! Woke up early as I have to be in the hotel by 8am, and start playing by 9am. 

Got there slightly earlier than 8am, and met the HR manager again lol. Had tea with him, and then it was briefing time.

Wasn't much of a brief. Just told that I was supposed to play at 9am, and stop when the GM have finished his speech. Around 8.30am I was told to test the piano again, and er somehow I don't know how, but the testing blended into my supposedly start time lol. 

I was feeling so blur, like hmmm are they starting yet or can I still mess around. So yeah, I was testing some new songs, randomly improvising, changing songs whenever I want, when all of a sudden I realized that the event have already started wtf. 

The piano is at the back of the lobby, by the lobby bar. Its like two different place to be honest, but it's close enough for the piano sound to drift nicely into the main lobby. 

So yeah, I can't really see what is happening -_-

Before I knew it the GM's secretary came and told me to stop because they're going to play some loud music. Okay cool with me.

After a while I was told to start again, and I had no idea when to stop lol. So I played for around 45 minutes and then I look for the manager and was told to wait there for him. Played for another 15 minutes and he still didn't show up. -_-

So fine I went to the office, and was told I could go back. But I have to go back and play at 1.30pm and 5.30pm wtf.

Was feeling kinda pissed that they didn't set up a proper schedule for me yet. Anyway since I was free to go I went back to the room, but lol I can't remember what I did. I think I slept hahaha.

Here's some pictures;



So, before 1.30pm, I went for lunch. Can't remember what I ate.
Then back to the hotel for piano time again. After that 1 set, I roamed around the beach, and after that sat in the lobby reading while waiting for the last set of the day. 

I was told to go enjoy the buffet that night, but my goodness it was so crowded and everyone was waiting for a seat, so I was like screw it I can have the buffet for the next 6 months lol I'll just go back and enjoy a cup noodle. :'D

Picture of the restaurant

Pictures taken while roaming around trying to wait for a seat:





I was alone at the beach in the dark lol. So peaceful, although I can't shake that blanket of loneliness off me. In a way I like it I guess, but damn it I was feeling too alone.

The cup noodle I had.




IT WAS SO GOOD. 
Best I've ever had omg. 

I'm kinda glad I had this instead of the buffet hahahhaahhaha.


Day 4

The fourth day! A start of a proper routine now. My playing time is at 3pm, 4pm, 7pm, and 8pm.
What I usually did was head out at around 1.30pm to 2pm to have my lunch (depending on mood lol).

The walk to the hotel

One of the restaurant I can eat it, but so far I've only ate here once. I don't have any pictures of the other restaurant


Random picture

So yeah, this was the day when I start to eat in the hotel :)
I remember that when I saw the buffet spread, I was like "shit this is when I will get fat. There goes any chance I have of slimming down"
Lol.

The food variety were crazy, and they were sooooooo good. 
I am proud to say though that I am controlling myself well. I did not binge eat or take everything I want hahaha. I limit myself to a certain choice every meal, cause erm after all, I have 6 months to enjoy it :x

So yeah..After eating I start my first two sets of the day, and once I'm done playing, I went out and roamed around at the beach again lol. Took some pictures.








Roamed around for an hour, then I head back to the hotel to have dinner. After I finish eating it's time to start playing again!

And yep, after playing I went back to the hotel room and there ends my day hahaha. This is what I do usually, at least so far for the 8 days I've been here lol.


Day 5

Same as day 4, except that I ate in the other restaurant (Garden Restaurant).
And oh, when I roamed at the beach that day, a lifeguard offered to take my picture for me when he saw me snapping around haha.

But it was so funny because the sun was already setting, and it's quite dark. So the pictures turned out to be silhouette shot, and he was quite confused, and he kept trying to take more pictures lolol. I told him it's okay, but er, language barrier there lel. 
In the end he just handed me my phone back looking all apologetic ._.

                                         
The picture that he took lol

Again here's some picture that I took;


Clear water, although it's not that calm and the color is not that nice.
Also, I caught a crab lel. Played with it for a while before I released it, and I might have accidentally killed it cause it got washed away by the waves. .___.


A random picture of my music spot :)


And oh, after I finished dinner, Mr V, the F&B manager, saw me, so he sat opposite me. He ordered some seafood for dinner, and told me to eat.

I'm like...uhh...okay..
*nervous sweat*

I don't usually try snails omg. I wasn't adventurous enough. Crab is still okay, but how do I eat without making a mess of myself lol. I have make up on, and I was wearing my performance gown hahhaa. Anyway I ended up eating just the snails.

Thank god they're delicious and didn't gross me out. 


Thankfully the time for me to play came before he can make me eat more hahaha. I gladly ciao-ed.
After playing, I asked for a tuk tuk to bring me back to the staff house. Feeling too lazy to walk :x



And that's the end of Day 5 lol.


Day 6

On this day I went swimming!
Woke up at 5.30am, just as the sun was rising and went out to the beach.

Clear calm water!

Lol squinting eye selfie


I swam for about an hour, then walked around for another hour trying to get dry before I went for breakfast.

Again met Mr V, but phew he didn't ask me to try anything this time haha. At least I have company yay. Then we met some CEO/COO (I am not sure who lol). Mr V introduced me as.....The pianolist. Lmao. The look on the CEO/COO face hahahhaa. He's like, "The what???" (He's ang moh, while Mr V is vietnamese). 

I controlled my laughter and told him, "The pianist."
Lol. Poor Mr V. I hope I didn't embarrass him or anything ._.

After breakfast, I went into the hotel room and sleep lol, and woke up again to start my set and continue the day as usual....


Day 7

Right. Another usual day, except that I discovered....

THEY HAVE MACARONS OMG.


Lovely, lovely, tiny cute little sugar bombs.

I only had 2, I wanted to take more but it's time to go play piano T_T
So yeah. 

And then now I've limited myself to only 1 macaron a day :/
Because at this rate of me eating all these food, I'm gonna balloon up quickly lmao. And I didn't exercise enough, 

Ugghhh really need to hit the gym and go to the beach more.




So yeah that's all for now. Pretty much the same kind of thing everyday. 

I did have a chance to go to the market and enjoy the staff night life, but will write about these 2 experience later.