Miscellaneous updates

One of those random updates that I like to do again haha.
Reason why I'm always doing these type of update is cause I'm lazy LOL.
Lazy to create separate posts, cause it'll have to be more detailed.
And I am lazy in snapping lots of photo and writing in details ahaha :3
But I guess it depends on my mood and occasion.

So, I was working on the weekends during the month of January.
Was working as Brand's Innershine SpokesPerson.
Or in other words, promoter lol.

I have to wear their uniform which is so not my style. Here's a picture lol:

Complete with a crown wtf.

And I have to wear shoes with heels T^T

Standing the whole day in a 2.5inch heels wasn't fun man.

By the end of the day my feet ache so bad. 

On the last day, it hurts so much I had to exchange shoes with a colleague during the last hour, it hurts so bad lol.

Me and Aziah :D

Lol I had to wear make-up for this job too. But then cause I'm lazy, I just applied foundation, concealer and a tiny bit of eyeliner.

I saw all the other workers, they all appear in full make-up, complete with mascara, blush, lip gloss, color contacts :x

Guess I really got to take my appearance more seriously, make an effort to look better.

Yearightjoeeasifyoureallymeanthat. Lol

But hmmm...would be fun to dress up sometimes :3

Anyway, didn't really enjoy this job. Those permanent promoters in Guardian Midvalley (where I was working) was mean, I could see that they always bully temporary workers there. Aziah got bullied at first as well lol, and some other promoters I be-friended.

Also, the supervisor I got is quite inexperienced I guess, so stuff is kinda hectic as well? But she's really nice though. Guess that made up for it.

So aside from my job, I finally found the chance to go shopping!!!! Omg the last time I really shopped was like a year ago? Anyway went to Kenanga Point with mom and sis.

There's a lot of clothes there, but they're kinda almost the same lol.

Still, they're really cheap.

Here's what I got:

Skull top!! Apparently I'm not over the punkish phase yet haha, though it's more subtle now.

Minty green chiffon blazer

Yellow chiffon top. Okay I'm too fat for this T_____T Look so tubby lol

Fox sweater!! haha I love it

An eagle sleeveless top, and that skirt

Bought a dress in the same print as the skirt lol. 

Also, a leather vest. It's cool xD

Well most of the stuff I bought is in black :x

As usual lol.

I wonder whether will I love other colors haha.

Anyway, bought a neon pink top the other day while I was at The Mines.

I love it, since it has shoulder holes haha. 

This isn't my usual fashion as well, and actually I didn't choose this. Mom chose it for me lol.

I love it though xD

I have so many clothes now, I can't wait to move to a new apartment in USJ so I could dump half of my clothes I have here to there. Right now my closet is almost bursting, and it's at the point whenever I open it a pile of clothes will tumble up. You need skills to open and close my closet hahahahahha.

But I guess a lot of the clothes inside don't really fit me anymore, I gained lots of weight fuck my life T_____T

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO LOSE WEIGHT BUT SO EASY TO GAIN ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHH.

Hmm aside from these, it's just random yumcha meet up with friends where I didn't bother taking pictures haha.

As for Chinese New Year, nothing much to blog about. On the Eve, we had Thailand food :D

OMG THE BBQ MUTTON SO DAMN NICE. 

Oppss not in the picture. Haha all the dishes have yet to come out, but I don't have a picture of all dishes. There was an extremely cute pup under the table getting my attention lol. It was an extremely big boned pup, I think it's a Great Dane.  I was playing with it haha. It keeps gnawing at me hand wwwww so cute, with it's baby teeth. I think it was around the size of an adult Bull Terrier, but I'm guessing that pup is around 3-4 months old.

It was so cuteeeee TwT Kinda look like a Pit Bull as well lol.

Too bad I can't get a picture :/

Anyway that dinner was quite good :3 Even though the tom yum soup is freaking spicy.

And I accidentally bit on a cili padi on the fried chicken which burnt my tongue awfully. Can't stop tearing for like 10 minutes and can't stop drinking water for like 15 minutes.

It hurts so bad. Lol.

As for the first day of Chinese New Year, had lunch in Subway LOL.

Then dinner at some restaurant in Connaught. No pictures, just the usual dinner we all have lol.

Well I guess that's it. This year's Chinese New Year is really boring, all my friends are in their hometown T_T

Will be going out for movie later tonight though haha.

Ciao~

What do you want?

That's a question I don't really know how to answer when people ask me.
It's not that I don't know what I want, I just don't know how to tell them.

Mostly when I'm asked that question, I'll probably say "Nothing, I guess."
Or, "Money" or "To slim down" then I'll proceed to laugh.
Sure, I want those as well haha, just that it doesn't really define what I really want.

What I truly want is to be free.
Be free from caring what people think of me.
Be free from being judged.

I want to go away and just..Not care.
Not care about what people expect from me, not care about how people view me.
Currently, I feel as if I'm just a weirdo.

Whenever I have some crazy hair color, they'll give me the look and say, "Again??????".
Whenever I tell them what I'm studying, they'll be like, "Are you sure you can survive in the future with that? Will you have a stable job?"
Whenever I tell them that I have not have a boyfriend before, they'll be like "Woahhh, but you're 19! Go get one soon!"

I'm tired of all those. I know people mean well, but I wish they would at least try to view things from my point as well.

What is wrong with having crazy colored hair? Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with that? I like it cause it gives me confidence. I like to stand out as well, weird as it may be. Having coloured hair doesn't mean I'm bad. My hair color doesn't mean I'll go and take drugs or whatever shit, nor am I rebellious.

As for studying what I want, I'm living my dream.
What do you really mean by a stable job? A job that requires you being like a zombie the whole time? Doing something you don't like, being tied down with your schedule from 9am to 5pm? Going home tired and bored, and repeating everything again the next day?
As I mentioned, I like adventure. I could take risks, I'm not afraid of falling and getting up.
What I'm studying will lead me to what I want to do, travelling, meeting like minded people, experiencing new things.

As for the boyfriend stuff...It's quite ridiculous hahahaha.
Not gonna bother elaborating.

Yeah, you can tell me to not care about what people think of me, what people say about me.
It's hard to do that, when these people are my family and friends.
I'm already trying my best to ignore. But sometimes, it just gets to you.
You'll be thinking stuff like, "Are they liking me for who I am?" "Are they bothered by me?"
It gets tiring, between trying to fit in and being true to yourself.

Easiest way to be free for me is to travel I guess.
I know that if I'm travelling, people will just glance at me and think, "Here is another weird traveller."
It won't bother me at all, since I don't know these strangers.

And I want to travel because I love arts, I want to see the culture from all over the world. The art they creates there, the way everything is. I want to meet open and like minded people, travelling like me.
Experience different stuff, get involved with adventures, see mother nature in other countries.
You might call me naive, but there's no harm dreaming and trying.
We only live once, what's wrong with trying?
I'm not gonna live my life with regrets for the thing I didn't do.
I don't want to be cooped up in a boring life, faking to be someone I don't want to be, always afraid and worrying whether I fit in or not.

I guess to sum it up, it all comes down to "I want to be free."

But I can't give that answer to people when asked, can I?

Outing with Sofea to Putrajaya! :D

Hi everyone! xD
Random picture of me to start the post LOL.
My hair grew quite fast o.O
Okay, back to the topic, I went to Putrajaya with Sofea last week! :D

It's been so loooooooooooooooooong since I last met her.

I went to her house to pick her up in the morning, then off we go!
Went to Alamanda mall first for breakfast.
We had McDonald for breakfast lol, which I like xD
I love their breakfast :3

After that we just hang around in Alamanda for a while, and I tried to take Sofea's pictures.

Getting more interested in photography nowadays :)

We drove out shortly after, and I pulled up at the first park we came across haha.

It was Taman Putra Perdana.

Random photos.

Next park was Taman Botani.

I think we spent the most time here?

Haha.

When we entered, we had to walk past this bridge.

Of course, seeing as the whole bride is empty, I just had to lay down xD

Well we walked along some more, and just snapped pictures here and there.

Eventually, we came to a lake, and there's a seafood restaurant beside it :o

Didn't go into the restaurant though, since we've eaten.

Aww turtle! cute. :3

Oh, after that we passed by this place, where there's some type of feel I can't explain lol.

Retro? Not exactly.

Spent quite some time here taking picture.

Haha bear with the random pictures.

Nothing much to say except showing pictures lol.

Sigh my hair color so cacat now.

 Before we depart from Taman Botani.

The last park we visited was Taman Wetland!!

It's my favorite park among all :3

The look out point! :D

At the top :3 

Then we passed by a flamingo lake lol

Random pictures hahaha again.

Staring out into the...uh..wetland. Lol

Mud,

More mud.

Picture taken by timer.

We spent quite a while at this spot, I just love this type of nature. A bit creepy, yet beautiful. 

It's so quiet as well, there's no one else there except us.

Lol I'm opening a packet of crackers to nom.

Mud again.

Photo by timer again.

Basically that's it. It's nothing but a wetland hahaha.

I love it though :3 And I won't mind going there alone as well, except that it might be dangerous.

Oh well, this would be an ideal place for a date for me hahahahah.

Oh at the end by the exit, there's this place where it's kinda like a museum. I think they call it the nature appreciation centre?? lol

Anyway it was actually closed, and we were shooed out.

And I think we need tickets to enter as well xD

That's all for this post :3

We went back home after that.