I'm going to change. >:D

Hmmm...Finally have some time to on the computer.
Past few days was just checking notifications on phone lol, and you know what, I DID MY HOMEWORK! XD

What can I say....IT'S MY LAST YEAR IN SCHOOL, I'M TAKING ALL THE CHANCES I HAVE.


Lol okay I guess I can say I've been thinking alot.
This is my last chance to actually wake up at 6.30am in the morning, and get in an uniform that makes you look like a lousy maid wtf.

I'm gonna APPRECIATE this year, lived it to the max and enjoy.


All the while I've always been super duper lazy and don't care.

I remember, during Standard 6 (Which is actually not that bad, in fact it's very fun and memorable) I got 4 A and 1 B in UPSR.
That time I felt nothing, as I have no ideas how important studies is.
Heck, I never opened and read any book except doing my homework.

In Form 3, I got 5A and 2B for PMR.
Hell, I though I could get straight A's, eventhough I didn't really put and effort :/
I got B for BM, and for KH :/
That I regretted the most. If only I concentrated more in class, and do my project nicely, and revise ._.
But the past is the past and I can't change it.

All I can do now is, make sure I don't make the same mistake again.
I need to get straight A in SPM, and I will work for it.
All the Form 4 work that I fail, I'm gonna turn it to A :/

Lol I can't really believe I'm typing all these stuff out.

Meh :/ So far, I think I've been getting along okay, done most homework, listened in most class lol.
(Why did I put 'most'? =w= )

Still, this is no more honeymoon year and I know it :/


I will only sit for SPM once, and I'm going to make the most out of it. I want to feel the feeling of getting straight A.


Online less, go out less. Join all school activities.


And I will focus more on my piano too :/
Last year my Grade 5 exam, I just passed wtf. I know I could get distinction if I worked hard enough.
I was VERY LUCKY to even pass, because my scale failed wtf. Getting a pass is pure miracle as I only practice around 2 weeks before exam =_=


This year I will be taking Grade 7, and I will make I don't make the same mistake too OTL
So far I'm still fine I guess, at least I practiced my scales for real this time :/


Gahhhh I'm suddenly feeling the need to rant about all these stuff lol.
But then, I know that once I've posted this out, I will and I AM GONNA make it happen :/



I'm going to change myself now.
Exercise more. Get rid of all the excess fats..... =w=
Stop being so lazy. Don't over enjoy my life by going out all the time :/


Lol I don't mean I will become miss goody goody I don't go out I don't have fun I will only study study blablabla.
Of course I will still go out XD Cosplay, movies, karaoke, outing lol. Just that I will make sure that my work is done. :/




Lol okay enough ranting for now XD I'm like those over goody people ady o.O
Lololol so weird XD Anyway, don't think too much la, I just ranting XD But then...who knows what will happen huh XD Okay I stop lol.

Hopefully, what I aim for will be mine :3

Stupid me

Gahhhhh. Hating myself now.

Why am I so stupid?????
Hating my stupidity, my lazyness...

Right now I'm regretting, regretting that I never grab the chances when I have it, regretting that I take things for granted.

WHY AM I SO LAZY?!
Why is it that my willpower is so weak?
Why can't I keep to my own words?
And here I am, being useless, ranting and wasting time and being useless and all over again.....


GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




Someone help me please :/
Teach me how to stick to my own will, how to stop being so lazy......


This is bullshit huh :/

Here I am, ranting and ranting and ranting when I could use the time I'm using now to do beneficial things...
OTL


I'M USELESSSS GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




:/

Stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me