BBQ~!

So...Planned a BBQ party with friends a month ago lol.
Anyway, the party was last week. Can't said it was a complete success.
BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING AND THAT SPOIL THE MOOD. Q_Q

We planned to start at 6pm (getting ready) but we only start to build the fire around 8pm WTF =_="
Everyone was complaining bout being hungry...Sigh.
Around 7pm something while waiting for the rain to stop, we...

Yesh, filled balloons up with water!! 8DD
To prepare for water balloon war <3

Anyway, the rain slowed down to a drizzle soon, and the guys began building the fire.

While we girls...

Take pictures and wade in the pool XD

As for them, they just..Stand XD


Well, fire got builed up, began bbq-ing the food lol. Not that great coz it's raining again D:
Sigh. And there's not enough place T^T

Sigh. After eating, played around lol. Jumped into pool, throw balloons and made a mess..

Meh. Not a great party for me..Dunno why, just din't have the mood..Anyway, sorry if I ignored you :( Guess cause I have no mood and busy? Sorry \(_ _)/

Hopefully the next time it'll be better, and by the way, thanks to those that came and tried to liven things up :D

Rant

I've been thinking a lot lately, whether can I do it or not.
Do what? I don't know.
"Hontouni dekiru ka?' These words keep popping in my head these days.

Nani ga dekiru ka? ATASHI MO SHIRANAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


AHHHHHHHHHHHH JUST GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so frustrated right now.



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Final exam is just 3 weeks away. I don't want to fail anymore.
Yet, my laziness is overwhelming me..All I want to do is nothing. What the hell happened to me? I used to be so active, no afternoon nap, finish my work, pay attention in class, and others..

Naze darou..Kyonen no atashi wa chigau yo.


Everything is changing so fast, I'm getting scared. I wonder what will happen in the future?
It's not stable at all, not only mine, but my family's as well.

Mum always tell me our family problem, I'm glad she told me, but at the same time I just wanna be selfish and scream,
"STOP TELLING ME!!" ,
" There's no point telling me, I can't help, there's no need for me to worry too!"


How selfish can I be. I'm sick of it all.
Sometimes I wish nothing exist. Nothing at all. Imagine there's no life, no world, no universe. Just a big black image, blank. Makes you feel queer, right?



Sigh. Enough ranting, life goes on. You can't escape, just bear with it, and it'll be over soon. Time flies.
So, I shall sleep and gain 6 hours of peace and tranquility. When I wake up, problems will come flooding again, but then, there's always something to distract it till it's over.


Good night, world.