Why?

icantunderstandwhyyouhavetoleftus.yeah,iknowiamonly7whenyouleft,
ihavenofeelingsthattimebacauseidontunderstand
anything.ihaveveryfewmemoriesofyou,butistillremembersometimes
whenyouaremadorhappywithme.rememberingthosememoriesdoeshurt,
butitsthepresentthathurtsmost.mumhavetoworkreallyhardtoraisebro,
kyeeandme.itsuckstoseemumunhappysometimes.ifonlyyouarehere
insteadofheavenmumwonthavetoworksohard.she'llbeahousewife,
right?imissthetimewhenshewasstillahousewife.
istillrememberthosetimeswhenshecookforus,
fetchushoomefromandtoschoolandhelpmepaymyfeeatschool
wheniminstandard1.wheniminstandard2,you'vealreadyleft.
mumhavetowork.istillremember,ihavetopaytheschoolfeemyself
thattime.itjusthurts.ireallymisshavingahousewifemum.
sometimes,seeingmyfriendsthathavetheirmumstopickthemupafter
schoolmakemefeeljealous.itsstupidtofeelthatway,iknow.
butijustcantit,iguess.dad,iwishyouwerehere.
mumwonthavetoworksohardandgetsostressed,right?

Sigh..I dunno why im letting you guys know. maybe it was too painful to keep it in my heart for so long?
anyway, you wont understand what im typing, so, well, its nothing i guess.

~Noriko~
 どうして？りゆうしりたい。。。